Turning 21 And How It Feels










Photography: Gina Dreka

On Friday I finally reached the age of 21, it feels mad and scary to be this age, i'm getting old. I know i'm still young but i'm slowly getting further and further away from my teens and I still don't have a clue what i'm doing with my life. I've got to that point where i'm scared, life is scaring me. I recently dropped out of University so I feel like I have no underlining pathway to where I want to go. I like having a goal and working hard to get it but currently im clueless. I think this part of life has always been something that i've spoke about and can often be relatable to a lot of people.

I am someone who is meant to do something creative it's just how I work, I have never been academic, i've always had more of a creative eye and enjoyed the creative side to everything. When I was younger it was always my dream to do something in film, I used to film everything, make my own movies. I don't know where my passion went? It kinda eventually evolved to photography and telling a story with my photographs. I was always fascinated by the idea of creating a dream world in my fashion images, Tim Walker was someone who highly inspired me. It's weird since leaving college I just lost my love for everything, I have no path and aspiration. What happened? Why did I stop doing the things I once enjoyed. I've been so fascinated with blogging that it's the only thing I care about. In my mind I know I will never be a "blogger", which isn't the right frame of mind to have but secretly I have lost a lot of faith in myself.  Does anyone feel the same? I feel like I try very hard with my content and it doesn't get me very far. Don't get me wrong I enjoy blogging a lot in general but sometimes it brings you down when you feel like no one's interested in your content. It's like turning 21 has made me think more about life and where it is going.

I think I need to start realising that I shouldn't have to panic about the future, so many other people don't know what they're doing. Life is a rollercoaster and I need to enjoy every moment right now, keep doing what I enjoy and eventually I will figure something out. I need to start living, I feel like 21 is a great age and I need to take advantage of this age and live it fully, experience new things, stop worrying about the future, relationships and concentrate on having fun and meeting new people.

Do any of you feel the same? Or have any advice for someone like me?  I would love to hear your thoughts. xxx

Ps. I keep forgetting I wanted to start recommending a song / playlist with each post, so here's my song of the day.

                                                                                        

Bralette: Boohoo | Skirt: Urban Outfitters | Belt: Pretty Little Thing | Jacket: Boohoo | Hat: Depop

What's your opinion?

  1. A 26 almost 27 years old here! *raises up her hand* And I still have got no clue as to what to do with my life!

    I feel you, content wise. I love writing and taking photographs, but it seems like no one's paying attention or doesn't like it. I believe it is because you (and I) are not a typical blogger. You don't wear the latest trends, you don't add shopping links, you don't talk endlessly about the outfit alone. You add more to the conversation, are introspectional and are not interested in selling people your clothes; you just show them a different way to wear them.

    As I read somewhere on the internet: "keep doing even if it seems like no one's listening/reading/looking". And I think we should keep doing this because we love it! I don't think you nor I started our spaces because we wanted people to notice us. We had that initial itch to share, to write, to put ourselves out there and talk to people. It's what sets up apart these days.

    Sora | http://dangerouslyme.com/

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  2. you rock babe <3 I love all your outfits ! The belt is awesome !

    La Robe Noire
    IG : @Saskiabzn
    Saskia! xo

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  3. Life’s what happens whilst your busy making other plans. X

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